you replied. i can barely believe it. i hope so so much that there will be some kind of rekindling of friendship. i seriously can’t think of anyone else in the entire world who i would want this from more. wait… that’s not fair. i can’t put this on you. this is not your problem, not by any stretch of the imagination. i still hope though. i hope so much. too much.
i told you i started blogging again knowing that might trigger some kind of nostalgic response in you. fuck… i’m an asshole. why did i do that? arg…
i know you’re going to ask, and i want to tell you so fucking badly. i don’t know if i can. i don’t know if i should. if i don’t then why did i even mention it in the first place?
maybe i should have let sleeping dogs lie.
god, i’m an idiot.