why is it i have so much difficulty just being happy with myself? i feel like i constantly need someone, anyone, to validate me. and then then i don’t have that, i feel sad, i feel worried, i feel panic even. argh!
it goes beyond that too, it’s not just validation. i need to feel like someone else wants me around, that they need me around. like my worth and my value is only quantified by someone else. i should be able to self sustain some feeling of personal worth and value, no? this can’t be how everyone else lives?
i need to figure this out.