the last few days have been filled with reflection and thought. i’ve had some pretty strong and arguably irrational, or even unfair reactions recently and i do not like it. i do not like how it makes me feel. i do not like how it makes those around me feel either.
ultimately, there are things i can control, and there are things i cannot.
i need to focus on the things i can control and try to ignore the things i cannot. or perhaps not ignore, but rather, acknowledge and accept.
there is no need to obsess. there is no need to get upset. there is no need to analyze or figure out. it is what it is, and i have no control over it. end of story.
i’m looking forward to the day that my life regains a little more stability. i think the current novelty, volatility and uncertainty is what is making things so difficult to navigate successfully.
i yearn for routine once more.