18 days into dry january and so far, it hasn’t been particularly challenging. well, that is to say, abstaining from alcohol and cannabis hasn’t been challenging. what is phenomenally challenging however is dealing with good friends who are heavily intoxicated.
that experience has been actually rather upsetting. especially when someone i care about is flirting with self destruction due to consumption.
last night the boys came by to jam, we all had a great time, most of the gang were quite tame. a couple drinks and one 420 break. everyone was feeling good but not wrecked. meanwhile i stuck to redbull, water and 2 corona 0.0% sunbrews (which are actually pretty convincingly corona…)
however j, on the other hand, decided it would be a good idea to guzzle down 4 large cans of high alcohol beer, have 2 healthy glasses of whiskey, eat an inappropriately large amount of psylocibin mushrooms and then top it all of by smoking 2 joints. all in a 3 hour period. to say he was inebriated would be a massive understatement.
i’m worried about him. i really am. i don’t know what to do about it either. i tried telling him, i tried reasoning with him, i tried even guilting him, all of it went completely unregistered. in one ear and out the other. and even worse is that it was followed with a “you don’t understand what i am going through, i need this”…
mother fucker. if there is ANYONE who understands EXACTLY what you are going through right now, it’s me. don’t give me that.
he’s been my best friend for over 30 years and he’s going to kill himself if he continues down this path and i don’t know how to help him.